"Currently feeling like we’re in limbo. Officially Bradford is in tier 2 (high). Having had increased restrictions since end of July, tier 2 is actually a slight improvement as we can officially see people in our gardens. However there is increasing speculation about a “short circuit” lockdown so I sit and await the confirmation of this. I don’t want to speculate but so much of what they report in the news ends up happening so it feels inevitable. I’ll be disappointed if lockdown happens as we are meant to be spending 3 nights during half term in my parents’ new caravan. I am looking forward to the change of scenery and opportunity to live in a bubble where we can pretend there isn’t a pandemic happening. If lockdown is announced, I will of course adhere to the rules, it’s the not knowing that is frustrating. Someone I was having a conversation with summed up current feelings perfectly, that we feel guilty for feeling anxious! I am very aware of my privilege and know that life is pretty good compared to some, but I just can’t shake off the sickly feeling in the pit of my stomach that floats around, not knowing where to take itself. I did enjoy a beautiful autumn walk with a dear friend of mine. We haven’t seen each other since June when we had a coffee on her doorstep. It was pleasant walking round and catching up. We agreed to do it again soon."