"The dreaded Xmas eve. Couldn’t afford Xmas eve boxes so I’m gutted!! Screw you UC and COVID!! My wider family seem to not understand it’s like I’m fighting to keep my head above the mud puddle that’s pulling me down and they just expect normality from me and I just haven’t got it too give. I don’t know this is more of a rant than entry but it’s where I am right now "