"This is how I’m feeling ill. Very depressed. Angry at the mental health system, bloated, incontin and another uti. Had to get a food parcel which was very kind but also I haven’t had to do these things in my life. I had to ask for pads which make me feel like a baby with a nappy on. As I have to wait on a referral for an incontinence nurse to supply me with these. Tomorrow I have to call school again and explain I can’t home school my children as I have been in hospital for 3 months and haven’t paid the internet bill as I have no money to pay bt nearly £300. I’m angry as why is the system letting my FAmily down. I’m worried my children are not learning and because of my physical health it’s causing more depression. "