"I didn't want to get out of my bed today. I did, naturally, got kids to tend too so no choice really. But it's a tough emotional day today. Sick of tinned tasteless foods, sick of cleaning, just generally pretty grumpy today I guess lol. Been scrolling Facebook, saw a woman mum-shamed for feeding her kids chocolate spread sandwiches. Sometimes all I can get my kids to eat, cos they're even more sick of tinned foods than I am (and I'm tempted to just skip meals n and pick hunger of grossness, though I do eat up cos gotta lead by example, so I can only image how sick of tinned foods my kids are) and are starting to refuse foods, is biscuits or crackers. Breadsticks dipped in gravy. Porridge is the most popular food in our house, only thing my kids never refuse. Also they're not greedy or entitled. My daughter has cptsd cis of abusive ex and my son has (as yet undiagnosed) sensory issues. They try to eat when I give them, they never complain like I used too as a kid. They try to eat what I give them. Goes to show how maslow's hierarchy of need, so heavily drilled into me in my teaching and childcare days, is incorrect.
I then saw a post on the labour party page, talking about people not feeling safe to get back in shops cos there's no track n trace. I commented saying I don't trust the government cos it is safe for the underprivileged. I was just about to turn notifications off for the post, cos on political posts you tend to find lots of trolls, but before I did it got five likes. I'm surprised by how many agreed with me, helped me feel less isolated. Easy to feel cut off, behind the safety of our homes. I certainly don't feel safe even using corner shop at the minute, I don't trust the governments narratives or propaganda. Feels more risky now since lockdown eased than it did during the thick of lockdown. Weird to think I've not stepped off more than 50ft from my house in over two months. "