"Started an online course to improve my mental well-being. To be completely honest - being taken out of poverty would be the biggest burden lifted already. I still hold on to the hope of suitable employment. My family has propped us up throughout the pandemic. I'm fortunate for family help, but can't rely on them forever. We would have undoubtably starved without them. Another addition is the prospect of another Christmas. There will most likely be no full family festivities. This is a particularly sad time for us. Both children have birthdays during this time and it's the anniversary of my late husbands death. My heart feels empty and my head is foggy from dealing with these difficult situations. The bleakness in lockdown and isolation has a lot to answer for."