"Living through the pandemic has compounded those feelings of needing to be prepared, because if I don’t get things sorted, even though they will cope, I fear that the boys may not cope, but that’s my mothering instinct kicking in, I guess. I have no one else to rely on. My other son in Scotland can’t come down because of quarantine restrictions. I worry about catching COVID19 because I am overweight, have high blood pressure & because of my compromised spinal cord, I might not 1. even be offered a ventilator & 2. Survive even if I were offered one."