"so its been a while since i wrote in the diary. i got a fit note from my doctor for UC so they don't expect me to look for a 40 hour job now. i'm working 15 hours and the times don't make it easy to get any other work, id have to give this current job up. i have health issues coming up and visiting my gp and consultant appointment. i'm actually surprised i have seen the consultants within 2 weeks of my gp referral, i don't know if that's a good thing or a signal i should be worried something bigger is going on. stress and worrying isn't helping. on the flip side ive enjoyed taking part in the blog this month and becoming more forward in getting my voice out there. "