So it is currently 2:30am, this is the 3rd time in 5 days that I love found myself sat on the sofa in the dark while the rest of the family is asleep. I love Xmas itās my favourite time of year but this year feels different. Iāve got a big cloud over my head and I have no idea how Iām going to make this Xmas special. Iāve already explained the kids (the best I can) that there wonāt be many presents to open... Iām not even sure how Iām going to do Xmas dinner yet. Itās been 3 weeks since I did a food shop and Iāve got too many choices to make for the best for my family. Do I put us on strict rations for the next few weeks in order to have a decent Xmas dinner? Do I put us on strict rations in order for the kids to have a few things to open? (My son still believes in Santa and heās got it into his head if heās naughty he wonāt get anything). Do I forget it altogether and do the monthly food shop? Itās times like this that being a parent is horrendously hard, one way or another there is going to be disappointment as a parent thatās hard to stomach especially at Xmas. My children donāt deserve this! I've tried so hard and found myself a job which I start in 2 days, just to try and boost our income but I wonāt get paid until the end of January. The kids have been poorly for the last 3 weeks with various illnesses theyāve brought home from school and nursery (theyāre picking EVERYTHING up again because of being locked down for so long)ā¦.. tired, lost, stressed, depressed... thatās my week in a nutshell and thereās no light at the end of the tunnel just yet
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