"Today as i sit and prepare for our first full week of home schooling alongside me being a registered childminder the feeling of dread looms high. I have £6 in my electric meter, i have 0 money to top it up, i have no coal for the fire and im burning my home heating oil to keep us warm, a source i try not to use all day because i cant just buy£20 of oil there is a minimum order and its usually £100. i have had to isolate twice for 3 days at a time for hospital appointments which means i cant get out and neither can my child. i try to get her upto her dads if he isnt working its bad enough me being couped up without the child as well. she has and still is going through enough. i dont sleep well now and have constant headaches on top of all my other constant pains. UC is still viewing me as having to work 40 hours a week which i know i wont be fit for and there isnt many enviroments i can work in. i feel like if there wasnt a child in my life i truly dont know if id be here living my life this way. there is such a shame and stigma on people on benefits especially single parents, we have fancy phones, big tvs, smoke, drink and have a merry life. i dont drink i dont smoke i dont have a fancy house or car, i havent bought anything new in over a year. i prioritise my child and now i cnat even buy her clothes when she has barley anything in it to wear. santa bought her 2 hoodies and she changes them over hoping it is washed and dried when she needs it. children do not deserve this, they dont need to know we are penny pinching, they shouldnt be cold or hungry esp now they are at home more and they still have to learn. "