{ "audited": 1628516512362, "created": 1606911641193, "privacy": 2, "tags": [ "8o2Y49rU7fVcYSvx7gl9", "x8sRKvNILaRESuvP8TkJ", "rdfX8rXeUi8lvHYjZeSN" ], "read": 1607671933187, "updated": 1628516544618, "type": "diary", "updatedBy": "rOISUynFBNUZFrEibOysifH0R9F2", "moderated": false, "readBy": "AfFOmTZWGrVKbCC0IuLGHYhmlhp2", "diary": { "body": "My girl is 9 so still believes in Santa. Don't we all. she hasn't done her list and its worrying, I don't want to disappoint her. I know what she wants as her main present and I've got it via a buy now pay over 9 months. I'm hoping after Christmas things will begin to look better. it will be just her an I for Christmas morning, she goes to her dads for a few days which gives me time to just be me and do nothing. It doesn't cost money to do nothing. I don't know if we are going to have a warm home for the season I'm on low home heating and don't know for the life of me how I'll get money gathered up for it they have a min of £100 to order. Food is a priority right now. It's depressing I never wished to be in this position", "uploads": [], "mood": 0 }, "publishedBy": "rOISUynFBNUZFrEibOysifH0R9F2", "auditedBy": "rOISUynFBNUZFrEibOysifH0R9F2", "published": 1628516512362, "user": "vjKdzwhvrEcBDUejFmpEEc3J79R2", "id": "rx3ciBALI7I16QTBGCzY", "alias": "Teddy W", "random": 67, "objectID": "rx3ciBALI7I16QTBGCzY" }