"My girl is 9 so still believes in santa. Dont we all. she hasnt done her list and its worrying, i dont want to disappoint her. i know what she wants as her main present and ive got it via a buy now pay over 9 months im hoping after christmas things will begin to look better. it will be just her an i for christmas morning, she goes to her dads for a few days which gives me time to just be me and do nothing. it doesnt cost money to do nothing. i dont know if we are going to have a warm home for the season im on low home heating and dont know for the life of me how il get money gathered up for it they have a min of £100 to order. food is a priority right now. it depressing i never wished to be in this position"